Today would mark the 82nd birthday of Mama Collins. A bittersweet as we are just at 2 weeks of her passing. Dad had dreams of throwing her a big birthday bash, despite her explaining to him that she would not be here for it. She was right. She isn't here.
Saying I am having a difficult time swallowing her death would be a bit of an understatement. It is extremely difficult for me. Maybe because she was my last living grandparent. Maybe because I spent my entire life living 4 houses down from her. Maybe because I talked to her daily on the phone, a ritual that I miss. Or maybe it is the realization that my parents are "the next generation". Whatever the case, it has been extra hard for me to grasp.
But in honor of Mama Collins' birthday and her true spirit, I am going to play some tennis today, possibly smoke a cig, and tell one or two dirty jokes. I think she will be quite pleased with those choices ;)
Love you and miss you Mama!
Happy Birthday indeed. I know the loss is deep. But I think she would be pleased to know that you will forever celebrate her life.
ReplyDeleteThanks Rachie!!!!! Love you :)
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